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Don't tell me goodbye, .

my dearest bigbang.

Mid year.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I hate exams.

English Papers.
Wanna know how 'well' I've done? Okay.

Section 1. Free Writing. Write between 250 and 400 words.
I exceeded 409 words. Yeah, I wrote 809 words and I don't think that can be accepted. After the long long story, I've got no strength to complete my Report Writing and yeah, section 2 was completely bull crap.

Paper 2. Another pain in my ass.
Passage A was manageable while Passage B got on my nerves. I can't understand the whole bloody long passage and yeah, summary was all bullshits.

I know there's a lot of bulls in here. Sorry.

After school left for Causeway and bought a drink. Bus-ed to my aunts place and then back to causeway with her. Ain't feeling well so we all cabbed to my place. Now, we are all lying down in my room. How sweet. -.-

Oh yeah, I need all those good luck wishes. I need it I need it I need it! Okay, I'm gonna drill myself! I'm gonna push and work hard! I'm gonna get good grades and make my parents proud.

NOT.
I'm gonna screw up this monday's papers. Elec Geog and Maths paper 2.
I'm soooo confident that I'll screw up. Pardon me if I rest my head on the table, teachers.

I've got nothing else to say. I'm pissed.
Goodbye.


Sorry?
Monday, April 27, 2009

THE ONLY THING I HATE NOW
is the distance.
It IS driving me crazy.

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A bottle of coke Brenda bought for us during CIP on the 24th I think? Most of us can't recall the date. It's obvious that that day wasn't a memorable one. Never mind. Yeah, it's as if my Chairperson can read minds and she happen to read mine. I was craving for coke and tada! She passed me that bottle. Shared with the people and ended up with me cause they didn't want it. Coke? org giler je taknak. Okay so I brought it over to banquet. HAHA. Bbys should know how funny it was.

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Those stuff we collected since morning from many blocks. It's too little actually. Most of the residents ignored our presence. Awesome? Not. After shifting all those junks to the road side, we slack slack till the truck came. Finally. It's as if I've said all these before. HAHA.

Alright.

As for today, school's fine I guess. Bumped into Fazlina and ended up walking to school with her. Reached school and it was still early. Wow? Met my bby's and yeah, I was happy. Breakfast wasn't that great, that's why it is still in my bag pack. The best damn thing that happened today was during boring SS, a swamp of bees came attacking our school. Okay, I sounded exaggerated but seriously, I heard there was this freakinglish huge bee hive outside the school gate. Om Lee went class to class to ask us to shut the windows and doors when he can do that through the PA system -.- By the time he reached the third floor, the bees were already in the school compound.

My classmates was being themselves, irritating yet hilarious. They know that there is danger and they went on exposing themselves by going to the corridor. Ms Chee was freaking out and scolded us. Soon after we settled down, we can see lots and lots of bees flying around our garden and we can see some students running back to class. Hilarious! Sorry Ms Chee for not focusing cause these stuff rarely happen. So yeah.

After the "danger", we left the class and found a lot of dead or I must say, half dead bees lying on the floor like almost everywhere. Girls screaming here and there cause their no brain male classmates picked up those bees and showed them. HAH.

Recess, I ate. Omg.
-.-

Skip skip skip.
Hariz was being an ass today during Mother Tongue lesson

Maths combined test with 3N2 was fun? Not trying to mean anything but seriously the paper was sooooooo easy that I can do with my eyes closed. Okay fake uh but it is easy that I can score full marks. I had fun doing the paper with Alyssha and Haziqah from 3N2. Eeza supposedly be my partner but she was absent. Haiya. Okay. After the test, we laughed so hard that I can't even breathe a. Jenson was being a complete joker. Right girls?

Dismissed and headed to Civic Mac where Alyssha and I slacked. Fun moments (: Went over to causeway and walked around before heading home, alone. Reached home and got to know Khalis got his haircut. I guess I'm gonna laugh so hard till my waste are able to turn green. Okay, manure? hahaha. I try not to okay. (:

I am planning to make another blog, a Private one. Which is so so so gonna happen. Prolly shared with Alyssha or Bbys or maybe, all by myself. I'm still thinking though. Cause there are millions of things I need to say, privately. lol yeah.


it's love.
Sunday, April 26, 2009

THURSDAY EH THURSDAY EH THURSDAY EH THURSDAY EH.
rindu sia.

Okay. He's already asleep and I'm still trying to finish up my work.
I can't sleep cause apparently there's marble sounds right now. It's freaky. I don't even dare to move. And clowns, please don't appear in my dreams like last night's. I don't wish to wake up at 4am weeping. Thanks ar Khalis.
huahaha.

AH THURSDAY.
cepatan donggg.


The struggle.
Saturday, April 25, 2009

I woke up with a headache. It's been awhile since I stay up late talking on the phone and waking up close to noon. It's fun but ain't healthy.

Woke up and texting is all I do. Watched television the whole afternoon and then watched horror movie with brother. I know it's pathetic watching Coming Soon in the afternoon but god, the ghost really freak us out. But great!

Prepaid's low and I wonder how the hell am I gonna text khalis?! So yeah, thanks to Alyssha Bby for saying that I'm fat and it has affected me. So recess, I'll try not to eat alot. That way, I'll save up and yeah, top up and yay! (:

Wasn't in good terms with my mother this afternoon. I was holding back my tears, fighting through her words trying not to take it to the heart but I can't. I ended up crying in silence. Tears kept on rolling down my cheeks and it's unbearable. Thanks to Alyssha Bby for giving me support just now. And khalis, xie xie! " wo yong yuan hui zai ni de shen bian " teehees.

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Homework is peanuts, NOT.
It's as if this coming week is a one week holiday or maybe, June holidays!
Come on teachers, have a heart. 4N2's going insane okaay.
I guess I'll be doing some tonight before his call.

WHERE'S FIAH BBY?.

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Alyssha dear, don't sad sad okay? I don't know what to say but I know one thing, I'll always love you uh. I know last time we ain't this close but we were friends, normal friends. But now, I'm feeling honoured to be your bby, your love as you called me one. I love being friends with you and lets try to avoid any jeopardy coming in our way okay? You've been very nice and I appreciate. I loveee all the laughter we shared. Laughing over those matters that is not that funny but I know, we love to laugh like crazy. It's fun. Thanks for helping me, about relationships. The A**** and my dearest khalis. You've been an awesome bby to me.

Fiah dear, I guess it's only like close to two months that I've been close with you. Starting from the day I got to know you've got a crush on someone, who's now your dear boyfriend. You were sitting in front of me and will always turn behind and share table with me during lessons. You've been a great help and listener to all those craps I had to share about ttm and all. thanks. I've seen you cried, I've seen your weird faces ( esp the one at civic level four ), I've seen you laughed like auntie with no teeth, how scary, but I'm telling ya, I love you dearest bby.

Yeah, I love my friends.


perfect.
Friday, April 24, 2009

Hello dearies.

Okay, it's pretty hard for me to update properly right now.

School was alright I must say. Pretty mundane after recess. I was pretty focus during chemistry. Reason being, I did my homework and I was able to answer most of the question. Great feeling and Brenda was being super funny when we both got confuse over proton, neutron, electrons numbers. -.-

Recess was nice cause the bagedel was crispy. -.-

After school bumped into Ms Lai and we told her about the pile of homework we got for the weekends and she told us to focus on the worksheets and forget about art for a moment. I mean cool or what?

Anyway, Fiah Bby and I walked to the bus stop and took 900. Reached and settle down. Got shoo-ed away from Civic Mac so we headed to Causeway to get some food and met ttm. Waited for him to freshen up I guess? People walked in and out and he still have yet come out. Lol.
Okay, headed to the library and was shoo-ed for the second time. Walked out and met Alyssha. Found a place at Level Four and settled down. Guess what? Shoo-ed again! omg.

Okay, we managed to study awhile. Was pretty disturbed just now. Okay, then we had lunch over at Macs where ttm for hilarious eh. Lunch-ed and walked around. That's the fun part actually. Lol. Okay, spent quite a long time at cwp so we decided to head back to the library.
Chill-ed and then they all wanted to go home. Well someone just didn't wanna go home. Me either. Lol. Okay, bid goodbyes with my bbys and walked home with ttm (:
How sad that he had to walk back to cwp and take whatever bus which will bring him home back to Tampines.

Okay, I'm a happy girl today. Teehees!

Sorry but I'm otp with ttm, that's why this entry is like kak jing. -.--.-


it's been awhile.



I don't know what to do, cause I'll nvr be with you.
Monday, April 20, 2009

I don't know what to do, cause I'll never be with you.
- james Blunt You're Beautiful.

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Skipped religious class yesterday.
Skipped school today.

I feel so lazy, thanks to period cramps. How lazy? Very.

Took almost an hour to get out of the bed after waking up. Laze around in the living room, texting then finally shower! Watched cartoons and then off to do a little of my art. Texted Alyssha bby and she made her way over to my place after school.

Put art aside to entertain my guest. heheh. Had lunch with her. Looks like I've missed alot today from school. Regrets? Yeah. School's has been pretty mundane, the same things happening over and over again. Lessons after lessons. This is school life, what do you expect.

Art class started on their Layouts already. Sungguh ketinggalan sia aku.
Mati, tentu mati. Anyone staying up late today? Do text me. hahaha.
I'll be up hoping to finish up my third board for tomorrow's submission.

I'm missing my bbys! Although Alyssha bby came down here just now. Fiah! you're missed! Teehees. Ttm plak? tak payah. weink!

I WANNA BAKE BAKE BAKE!
I'm planning. To meet my nana dearest and maybe bake with her?
Omg anything la nana. Anything, as long as we meet up! Have to!
I MISS YOU DEAREST GIRLFRIEND, NUR AMALINA BTE ROSLEE!
Saaaaaaaayang kau manymany eh!

okay I'm done.


我爱你,卡理斯!
Saturday, April 18, 2009

Blog hopped and decided to post.

CIP was alright. I let my juniors do their job while Bbys and I did another half of the block. I must say juniors collected more than us! I wonder what they said to the residents. Bbys and I managed to collect newspapers when we reached the 8th floor from the 12th. Like finally! Many didn't open the door. Some, the kids open and the mom shouted at the back " what did i told you?! don't open the door! " * kid closes door & we just walk away *

Some can't understand English & we don't speak Chinese. Waste of time talking to these kind of aunties. Some houses with cool people man. One auntie gave bags of clothes and bundles of newspapers to the extent we had to call up our juniors who finished waaaaay before to come out and lend a helping hand. The auntie also gave me many magazines which is mostly Fhm. (haha)I must say that we didn't collect much as it was pretty early and we know most of the residents were still sleeping then. Especially Malay houses.

Alyssha got attacked by a cat she saw at the staircase. Abuse abuse! Fiah was laughing like mad when I did funny stuff and when I told her about my new signature laugh. I was perspiring like mad right at the beginning. And the juniors, as kanchiong as always. -.-

Funny moments with Alyssha when we tried picking up the black plastic filled with newspapers. I'm telling you, it's alooot. Then the plastic tore and all the papers came out and we were like, aper nak buat?!?! Yeah, I laughed till I toppled onto the papers. Carried all those junks to the meeting point which was was two bloody blocks away. Mengamok sekejap. Waited for the truck to arrive, we slacked like we never slack before. Waduh, lambat banget sih! Baby girls had to endure with ' we are suppose to meet today tauu! ' sorry loves. Texted ttm.

Went to Vista and came back, still not yet arrive! Chill with Fiah bby. Alyssha sat alone cause she was too lazy to get her ass over to our side. haha. Truck came and all of us just threw everything in. Truck = a mess . An uncle came up to us and made us followed him back to this apartment to collect newspapers, -.-. Back to truck and went back to school. After collecting stuff in school, headed for lunch at causeway. That's when the ' we are suppose to meet today tauu! ' became more and more irritating. Slowly, I was able to accept the fact that we are not meeting today.

After lunch accompanied Alyssha for her lunch over at macs. She was all moody at Banquet and didn't want to eat! So I know a place which she sure will makan. Mac donalds. There we saw those girls we bump into at Banquet eating at Mac donalds. Funny, I couldn't help but to laugh and laugh and laugh. For the first time, I find myself so much more attractive. Girls, you fhm kaaan? hahahahah. done.

Walked home alone.
ttm seems busy. Okaaay.
Surprise he came online!, for awhile.

Now, I'm in the dark. The only light is the one coming from the lap top's screen. I know the bed isn't the ideal place to eat your chicken rice but yeah, I'm having my dinner on the bed, in the dark. Mom is gonna kill me when she walks in later. First, I've been using laptop since afternoon. Two, I have yet perform my prayers. Three, I have yet to start on my revision and lastly, there's chicken bits and grains of rice on the bed.

" hmm, bilik udah bau ayam. ", said my maid. shits?

I'm feeling guilty. Because of me, my brother look so unglam with the spare phone. Sorry for swinging my arms real hard till I smacked your phone of your hands abg. I was sleepy when I opened the door for you to come in that night. I wish I can get you a phone. If i can pon, I'll buy for myself. hahahaha. ok wth?

MYE is omg. I've forgotten all my sec three stuff and yeah, I have the feeling that I'll flunk this time around. Maths is sick. Sciences is pain in my ass. Languages are like @!#!#$@$#@ harder now. I don't think I'll ace mid year. If I were to get 18 points above for mye, that's it. Seriously. No point dreaming about sitting for my O's and going Nafa. Kiss Nafa goodbye iRAH. Art, ah. I think I'll be the one who will disappoint the teachers. Again and again I say this. Kiss my A1/a2's goodbye.

I'm screwed.

I love Jocuri. hahhahhaha.
Movement one's the best uh.
Yeah, I already miss band. I already miss my section, alot.
I miss my clarinet. I miss warm ups. I miss side reading new scores.
I miss sectionals! I miss combines! Eh walao. I even miss fall-ins and bersurai.

I'll take back my words. I don't wish to leave Wgssb.

MARIS & ALYSSHA,
the girl is pretty whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat.
Nothing wrong with my eyes except that it's too small ah.
Binget tau mate kecik nak mampos.

And MARIS, you pig sia.
hahahaa.


Everyone's weird.
Friday, April 17, 2009

Tagboard's out.
I'll entertain text messages, won't for some people.
I'll entertain calls, won't for some people.

I'll be away since MYE is like around the corner, I think.

School's fine although there's the arguement.
After that went to Causeway with Alyssha bby. Fiah bby wasn't around. Hais.
Had lunch and stuff, headed home. Was tired so I slept till evening and woke up the minute I received a call from ttm.

And about ttm..
hais?


Don't bother me anymore, please.
Thursday, April 16, 2009













Ignored all of the irritating faces okay. We had fun.
School's okay. I enjoyed today. Usually I hate Thursdays.
Okay.......

Mass run was bitchy. I perspired like crazy.

After school bought lunch and went for English coach. After which went to the canteen and had my study date with Fiah Bby. Did Maths and you can see lots of hair fallen off our heads. Couldn't take it anymore and decided to go home. Before that, yeah camwhored in the toilet. Sang, laughed and all.

I know tucking in isn't part of the uniform but yeah, we agreed that it's pretty cool that way. Some of you guys might think that we are following you but come on, I've done this way before you guys wore white tops. Just to let you know la eh.

Congratulations Modern dance for clinching a Gold! Baik ah!
Went home with Fiah Bby.

TTM sedang meradang.
chiiilll baaaaaby chillll.
adoi.



utterly disgusting dumfuckers. platypus shits.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I'll make this a fast one.

Firstly, the way I speak english is my problem. I speak good english while you don't. Singlish is even better than whatever bullcraps that comes out from your mouth. For your information ass, I didn't 'slang', I didn't 'action nak slang' or whatever dumbfuck stuff you said I was making. Eh common la, I've been speaking like that since ages! you don't even speak english when you're talking to me. all you said was blah blah blah and theres vulgarities in each sentence. THAT, made you look uglier. huahah.

okay, all the structure and stuff are gone. I'm too pissed off to type properly.
At least this is better than yours. HAHAHA.

At least I've got guts to go up on the stage at last minute to do a presentation which was pretty impromtu. can you do it? I think you can't, you can't even speak proper english. Come on ah.
The others are okay with the way I speak, only you and your !@@$%@# friends can't stand it.
merepek or what? meh, I teach you to speak properly ah.

*points middle finger right at your face, minah*

and about the watch.
I just assume. asal kau mcm guilty gitu eh?
hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaha.

aku tak takot ah. sorry siket.

dah bye. benci aku.


it's getting stronger don't you think so?
Sunday, April 12, 2009

I love our movement 1!
I love our Jocuri Poporale Romanesti!
& definitely love WGSSB (:
sayang korang korang taus.

I've been neglecting ALL assignments and focus on the laptop nowadays. Serious shit I've got no mood for my art prep work already. I don't care I'm a potential whatever but I feel tired rushing everything to meet deadlines & then get reprimand. Idk. Everything seems wrong. Time spent on the laptop is worth it too. I'm loving Candles. Have been working the song on the guitar. Thanks ttm for downloading eh. walaupon send nyer lambat nak mampos but yeah, thanks! (:

Yesterday was alright. If my cell wasn't with me, then it wouldn't be alright. Followed Mother to Kallang Stadium to attend Maulud together with my sister, kak Neni, aunty & cousin. I can't believe I actually attended Maulud at stadium. Nothing much to say. Everything ended around 11.30 pm. Bumped into Fiah Bby! (: Cabbed home and was suppose to receive a call but jeng jeng jeng someone died-ed on me. baek ! -.-

This morning (:

Was woken up by a text message by ttm. Laze around then got ready for class. Dad was pissed off with me because I was late for class already. Fine, told him I'll go back home on my own and he need not fetch me. Merajok eh. Class was fine except that form teacher wasn't around and a relief teacher came in and he's irritating. Crap with the usual bunch of satans. Ended and bus-ed home.

Home (:

Hoping to get started with my idea development. I've got to at least paste something on the board. Maybe, skip school or skip art. Hais. What's happening. haha. world.


Second entry.
Friday, April 10, 2009

29 of us went to Perth, December 2008.

*smiles*


Holla.

To kill time.

Showered cold water around 9.40 pm. Now flu.

Watched many many videos and chatted with Fiah Bby on MSN while waiting for my ttm to come back online which is taking him !#!#$@#!#! years. haha nah, take your time. Fiah Bby gave me a link and I found myself watching Japanese games. It's not the ordinary funny games you know, it's very disgraceful. Let me make it simple, they played ping-pong. The girl took off her bra and yeah, two man uses their back palm and covered it & she played table tennis or ping-pong also I don't know. There's more. Tsk.

My brother and I made lots of noise in the kitchen early this morning at around 2 am. We had nothing to drink so I suggested on making fruit juice! Star Fruit with green apple. You have got to check out the expression on my brother's face when he drank. hahha.

My family except for father had pastamania for lunch just now. It was delivered to our place. My brother wanted to treat me to Pastamania,today, tomorrow, sunday, I think. We can't seem to fix a date and everybody was complaining how hungry they were and mother ain't cooking today so yeah, Pastamania at home! I had Penne pasta Marinara. Nice (: But things turn suckish later, sakit perut. HAHA.

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Okay, time killed. Still not back.
Good Night babies.



boo you.

I can't stand it already okay. What am I to the both of you?
Girls, I don't know what to say to you two. Serious shit. Am i not worth telling your stuff?

That guy, I've deleted that entry for you. I'm still thoughtful even after what shit you've done.

See, I don't see people appreciating me anymore. Where's the love? Why start doing all these to me? What the shit have I done to you? Have I hurt your feelings? Or maybe you should be the one asking me that. I don't get it and never will. " I miss Irah " Is something with no meaning anymore. It's just for me to feel that you guys are still part of me but the fact is that I'm not in your mind already. This is awful.

Now look who's around me. Who I became good friends with. And if you can't accept the fact that I'm still breathing without you girls then that's your problem. I'll see you in school and you'll see me in school. You wanna play truancy then that's your own problem. But because of your doings now and your hardcore absence irritates me. I'm sorry but classmates and even teachers have been asking what had happened to you fee. I'm tired cause I can't even answer them! I don't even know what's happening to you. And people even said " kau best friend dier beh tak tau dier kat mane sume. Ape siak kau " Thanks ah, ya I'm the bad one. ye ye.

Just so you two know, I'm terribly hurt that even my friendship with my best friend is in jeopardy. Kay fine ah, you want it this way that let it be that way. All I'm gonna focus is my studies cause I want to sit for my O's next year.

It's true now about what mom said. Friends won't stay forever although they made plans to even stick together after secondary school. ( a plan fee and I have made which I don't it will be a plan anymore )

Everything is fake. People are playing/played around with my feelings. I know I'm just a piece of shit.

I'm too nice. seriously.

& you can see tears rolling down my cheeks now.
see how friends can deeply hurt me. Hais.


Cause in your eyes, I'd like to stay..
Wednesday, April 08, 2009

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KATY PERRY - THINKING OF YOU.
The video is just beautiful. The lyrics too. Wow.
I watched the video like many times, sang it many many times till somebody fake that it's gonna rain all the way at his place. And I've fallen in love with it, the song of course.
And the dead guy is from Kyle XY. wow wow wow? yeah.

The song, wow. Really made me remember the past. 2 years back.
In that 1 year and 7 months, a lot of things happened.
I can tear up if I were to read my diary.
Every single page is about him. I still have the ice cream wrapper, of course he bought me the ice cream. I can vividly remember, it was on a school night 8.30 pm we met.

I still have the movie ticket pasted in my diary. He knows that it will be our first & last movie. He knows it, I hated that day. Alot of us hated it too. And I hated him for being sucha jerk. Ouch. I don't wish for all these to happen again. I don't want Reefyrah to come back. I don't want. What am I saying? I don't know. I just can't get myself together.

A***, I don't know if you remembered 30th March because I do.
Eh but don't worry, I won't disturb you anymore. It has ended months ago kay.
hahaha.

See, this is what I'm doing when I'm not in school at 12 pm.
Planned to sleep till the afternoon but by 9 am I was awaken by the noisy vehicles. Called mom to get Macs for breakfast but she was on her way home already.
Tried to go to sleep but can't. Replied some messages then.

Beautiful day to be lazy. I'm already lazy. Had my breakfast and slack in my room with the laptop while my friends are in school studying. HEH HEH HEH. Mom thought I was having a fever. I refused to tell her what was wrong with me. She seemed to be worried. I guess I just need the time off, the rest I've been yearning for.

Those who wants to see our band camp pictures, our sweet pictures together, please visit Shirly Chua's blog. Awesome pictures. I was touched, I was like ' aww man, the band is so happy together '. Really. Now, I hate to say this but I don't wish to step down. Cmon N level, make me sit for my O's! (:

Okay, there's nothing much to say already.
I'm lying down, singing to Thinking Of You.
that's all.

See ya.

Thinking Of YOU - Katy Perry (:


(V1)
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest oneI still got the seed


(PRE)
You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know


(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes


(V2)
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter
like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test


(PRE)
He kissed my lips I taste your mouth
He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself


(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you what you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I was looking into...


(BRIDGE)
You're the best and yes I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now the lesson's learned I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know


(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you What you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I was looking into your...


Your eyes Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door and take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay



Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Camp.

The awesomest band camp I've ever had because usually band camp, Mr Sim will have to drill us to get this part right, that part right to the extent going back to the basics and trying to build a good foundation. It's tiring but for this camp, less than 24 hours to SYF, I enjoyed it. The band knows whats happening, playing without scores weeks ago and the feeling was there. I feel secured.

We had our second rehearsal at SCH that afternoon. Usually my section will get the back seats on the bus and will jeer the saxophonists for trying to steal it from us but failed. This time around, IT WAS A CLOSE FIGHT. Luthfi placed his bloody tenor and block my way. The boys attacked and I gave up leaving Caroline alone at the back seats. I scolded the boys and sat on a seat in front of them. Caroline who's alone made her way in front nagging. HAHAHA. It was hilarious. Through out the journey there both of us was cursing/scolding/nagging at the saxophonist. WHICH IS FUN. We hated our seats but I guess they hated their seats as well cause the bus was a small one! hahahahhaahha. nak sngt dudok blakang kan, mampos krg tempat sempit.

Got back to school around 7:30 and had our dinner straight away. Washed up and settle down in the BAND ROOM. Some talks here and there and had a relaxing therapy by Ms Seow which wasn't a relaxing one for myself. I cried through out as Ms Seow guide us in the dark, telling us what will be happening the next morning. It was scary to know the Day is here. Opened up our eyes and found Caroline too was feeling down. It hurt us knowing this will be our last SYF and after that, POP.

Slept in the Commerce room. Wow I must say I enjoyed my time there. -.-
Dewi had to pull me out of the sleeping bag at 4.40 in the morning! Only stupid people wake up before 5 lor. But yeah, got up and wash up. My hair got stuck in the hair dryer. As a result, some parts of my hair became shorter. Shi Mei couldn't stop laughing. Breakfast a 6am. wow? yeah.
Banana and bee-hoon.

Warmed up and headed off to SCH. We did our relaxation stuff and I tell you, I was 10% nervous. We performed. Before you know it, results came.

Silver. The teachers was over the moon while the band was feeling low, disappointed, upset and all those stuff you can think of. I cried badly, many of us cried. But I realised later, Silver is good. We maintain and it's good. But it hurts us alot that we can change the colour. Stepping down and failed to make history. Hais uh?

Someone told me not to cry cause he's 'here'.
It's weird cause I don't see him any near me at all. So yeah, I broke down when they started announcing the first band.

Congrats Tampines sec, a band we met in two exchanges for clinching Gold.

Back to school and we felt good.
Because we are always reminded; ' Positive energy! '
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Dah ah, don't wanna make myself sad.
Now, pray hard for Pasir Ris Sec! (:

Feeling shagged. I'm sick, that's why I'm home at 11 plus.
IM DONE.

someone owe me an entry after SYF. (:


Saturday. Pfft.
Saturday, April 04, 2009

Okay, I actually waited for Fazlina to send me the Sports Day's pictures we took but I look god damn gorgeous till I don't wish to share it with you readers. I looked very skinny, fair, not chubby, eyes are as huge as a ping-pong ball and I look awesome.

NOT.

Okay. I don't think I would want to stay up late just to keep me guy friends entertained. I mean, they will have fun texting, MSN-ing and stuff but I'll get the back aches for sitting down for too long, and finger hurts for texting too much. And when I don't reply them, I'll be labelled 'sombong'. Tell me, what did I do wrong man? What the fish is this ah?

And what else do I get? Ignorance.
Lets not touch on that. Pretty f***ed up.

I was dead beat yesterday till the extent I forgotten there's practice today.
Alarm went off and sardine-ly turn it off. I was like, what the fish it's Saturday! Thanks to Dewi was calling me and yeah, I rushed to school after that. Missed fall-in & managed to tune and stuff. Thanks father for driving me to school (:

KCPs and St Hildans?, yeah, they came. Pressure, a little bit.
I think we did great today. Not much to say on the practice. Semua aku buat salah, kau je betol. After practice when for lunch with the clowns and gang and Azfar (: *chuckles* Pretty funny here and there. Head home with Qraisha after lunch. Had to go home cause brother's ciggs was in my bag and he needs to smoke badly -.-

That reminds me, I have best friend, girlfriend, guy friends, friend who smokes too. & I don't even know that they picked up the bad habit again. Hmms, am I a bad best/girl/friend? Or they just dont bother to tell me their dirty little secrets anymore?
HAH, try not to be bothered already..

Platypus shits.

I can't wait for tomorrow to come! Okay what the hell. But really, I can't wait! Hope to see the new faces or FACE again. Nak get to know. HAHAHA. Okay, ignore this part.

SYF is this Monday. I will be away from tomorrow afternoon onwards. I will be having camp in school and another rehearsal at SCH. Awesome or what? Pray hard my ulcers which grew like few days back don't pull me down. Ugh, it has been pulling me down. Let's not think too much about it, because the more you think about it, the more it'll jeopardise your confidence. In my theory la. Chey.

I really can't stand this. I don't see why I can't get in tune when years back this wasn't a major problem for me. I've been using the same mouthpiece same clarinet. Reed might be the problem but why is this so hard? I feel so pressurized for not being in tune with people, for certain notes. Clashing and have to drop jaw, open jaw, faster air speed, loosen grip, bite tighter for different notes. And my sound isn't as mellow as it used to be. I mean, I think my sound was so much controlled back then. Ugh. Persevere. After Monday, it will be one of the thing that will not be bothering me in my dreams. Seriously.

Art is another piece of shit that's bothering me. Maybe this third board, I'll hand in way after the due date. dah ah dah ah.

Packing for camp real soon. Alamak, no stockings.
Mati, tentu mati.

Dah bye.

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Friday, April 03, 2009









Afternoon! (:

You guys watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S?
Well if you do, you should know how tidy Monica is, right?
I think.. I think.. I think!.. That I'm just like her. Well not exactly but I love to get tidy. At times, I even arrange my friends books under their tables. I can't take mess in class. Really, can't.

That's one of the butterfly I've done for my Observational Drawings. I think it's a job well done as I spent like many hours at home and at Rp till late to finish it up. Ya, still saddened by the fact that I've to take out my flowers as 'there is no link'. ugh, okay.

The Art Madness is back, I'm warning you.
We are now working on our third board which is the Idea Development.
Working well on it for now. Making 3-D effect ain't that easy, especially with this idiotic sketchbook which can't take pressure by the colour pencils. Ugh, how to do effects maaan.

I've got to get at least an A2 for Art. In some ways, I'm able to slack a little bit on some other subjects. Okay, slack isn't the right word to use. Can't think of the right word. What do you expect from a student like me who will never ace in my English Language. Pfft.

Today is our 10th Annual Sports Day.
Pagi-pagi dah kene paitao by Azhar. pfft.
Mundane. Extremely. I regretted coming. Sumpah.
The blazing hot sun makes me feel hypnotic. I almost slept in the shades and during the prize giving ceremony. Oh my god la it's so time wasting. I had to queue up to get my drinks. I mean, everybody needs to queue up but oh em gee, those who queued, you'll know how I feel. And the teachers rushed us to finish up our stuff as others are waiting. We don't finish up, others will suffer in the long queue and starvation/dehydration.

I don't care. Stomach filled to the brim with Pepsi.
Maciam nak muntah.

Had lunch with Alyssha darl, Azhar and friends. It was cool.
After lunch, accompanied the boys to Marsiling for awhile and took the same bus.
Dropped off at interchange while to boys went home. Slacked at Macs and yeah, I've spent quality time with her. Awesome.

Headed home around 5 since both of us are sleepy & freaking-lish full.
& another reason, someone asked me to go home -.-
AFTER WHICH, asked me to meet him. walaos.
I went home. I like home. I loveee home. -.-

Just so you readers know, I'll be away on Sunday for band camp. Preparations for SYF on MONDAY. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. Okay, Caroline sure gonna smack me for being nervous. haha.

Ohya, Fiah darl just remind me about something/someone which/who is definitely an ear&eye soar man. I'm telling ya. Ugly dumbf***e*s with utterly disgusting face and suckish attitude leading a horrible-no-life life and go one hating people for no reasons. Seriously, pick on someone who is the same size as you. Okay, maybe you're too big to the extent that not much people are as gigantic as you. No offence. But really, picking on innocent people just prove to others that you're a big fat fugly coward. FYI, those people who you went telling how much you hate us/others are also the ones who detest you. I mean, who will want to like you sia. HAHAH. Right at your face, ass. So stop your childish act and practice being a 16 year old.

Kencang kan? Kau boleh, aku pon boleh la sia.



There's two of em.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009

April Fool's Day.

Was fooled in the school toilet by makcik Maris, FIRST THING IN THE MORNING!
Fooled a few times in class & during band. Pfft.

Nothing much to update.
SYF, oh dear it's this coming monday. I don't know what to say. I feel the tension and guilt. Guilt, the band members should know what's up. I feel guilty and really, I pity Mr Sim. Ah, woodgrove Symphonic Band, let's make history. A good one. Jia Yous.

Awesome that I did not squeak my solo during practice today.
Early part of today's practice was very tensed. I felt pressure, I teared up. The more Caroline asked me to tahan, the more I cried. But no, I ain't crying in front of Mr Sim anymore. Ah, chiong all the way and not bad, I think we sounded fine. Unlike yesterday's performance. Ugh.

Okay, rushing through my English and I'm gonna crash.

& please people, no more fooling with my feelings. It's enough for today.
Goodnight.


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